I wanted this Instagram to take you completely through my health journey. Part of that is sharing the “not so fabulous” parts of all this. Today was a BIG mental game for me. Starting at the beginning of this week, I didn’t post a #motivationmonday I couldn’t bring myself to do it because when I stepped on the scale I saw all my progress had gone away from one weekend of fun. I was devastated and refused to post. Today has also been a BIG mental battle. My morning started out great. I was looking at myself and saw all these non-scale victories about myself. My “permapudge” area of my stomach seemed to have disappeared. My my rings are fitting looser. My shoes are all getting loose. After all that I got dressed and thought “well my clothes are all still tight/normal.” That thought crushed everything that was good from before. I prayed to God for some encouragement to keep working towards a body that would bee a pleasing dwelling place for Him to stay. He definitely delivered as I saw I had relost all that weekend weight, plus some! I was ecstatic! The day went on and I had some cereal I knew I shouldn’t have and some potatoes. I got so upset at myself. I was texting a friend and told her all about my victories today thinking I could be happy when I remembered them again, I wasn’t. I went to the gym anyways. I got more disappointed with myself there. My usual 3 miles, became 1.5. I told myself it was okay because I did arms too, but I still left before I felt happy with myself. However, I knew that I would be there by morning if I was going to stay as long as needed to make myself happy. Today didn’t feel like a win, but it’s important to still go and do something with myself to make at least one healthy decision despite feeling like it doesn’t matter. You only truly lose when you give up! Thanks for letting me be honest with you all.