Good mom, bad mom, working mom, Christian mom..... Fractured mom
I don’t know about anyone else but I’m over it. I’m over the cold. I’m over the snow. I’m over the lack of sunshine. I wanna go outside. And not for the the five seconds it takes to run from the car to house or school (the only two places I seem to go anymore)! Winter is rough. It’s dark when I leave for work. Dark when I get home. If the sun does shine, it’s too friggin cold to go outside and enjoy it! For me, it leads me right into the doldrums. I’m talking full on blah mode. Every year is different though. Some winters I want to do absolutely nothing. And then.....there’s this winter.
I’m a self proclaimed obsessive compulsive. I like things a certain way and will threaten harm when it’s not that way. Ask my kids about the dishwasher some time😬 Well thanks to the winter, my house is so obsessively clean you can eat off of most surfaces!
I feel like I’m not in the right state of mind right now. I still sing my worship music. I still pray and do my Bible studies. But I feel off. I’m disconnected from my writing. My business is suffering from a lack of me. I can’t decide if I want to go take a nap or reorganize something most days.
I know eventually it’ll pass. But man am I glad Cam had an extended practice at basketball (that he failed to mention) which sent me in search of a friend. It was good to just talk and forget for fifteen minutes I’m a walking basket case right now. If you don’t have any, get yourself some momma friends. They are the best because they get it. They. Get. It!! Well, I can hear the house wondering where I’ve disappeared to now. Yes, I am totally hiding in my bathroom, leaned up against the door. No shame in that! Guess i better go finish wrangling the troops toward bedtime! #momlife #sooverit #winterblahs