I’ll admit it - this role has been scaring the shit out of me for months!
When I read the script, the main character definitely sounded like me because she talked like I do, honestly and with a smattering of curses, but I could relate more to one of the supporting characters, who was a wife and mother. That IS me in real life, so it would be easy. Stephen Province, the CD and Director, asked me to also audition for the lead character, who is sexy and confident and other adjectives I wouldn’t use to describe myself, so I did. Long story short, he and Janice Haas, the writer, loved my audition and offered me the lead role. I was tempted to turn it down because it was way, way outside of my comfort zone, but I also realized that the real reason I wanted to turn it down was because I was afraid. And if you know me at all, you know that I don’t like to let my fears control me, so I accepted the role and embraced it as a challenge and opportunity for me to grow as an actor.
I worried that the physical blocking, I.e. making out with a practical stranger on camera, would throw me off balance during shooting, so I made sure to spend extra time on my lines, and decided to just roll with the physical stuff on set so that it would remain spontaneous. After all, I could neither control nor predict the outcome, so I tried to just let go of any expectations. I think shooting went well, and it ended up being pretty fun and silly. Hopefully the end result will be worth watching, but in any case, I know that I feel more confident having done it, and I’m proud of myself for overcoming a personal obstacle to become a better actor.
Many thanks to Steve & Janice for the opportunity, and to the crew for creating a safe and fun environment for @Keith.nussbaum and I to explore these characters!