stop calling me strong.
stop telling me that you're proud of me for keeping it together through everything ive been through.
cause im not strong and i haven't kept it together. i cry myself to sleep everynight im alone cause im afraid the loneliness is going to be permanent. everytime somebody raises their voice i get pushed into a panic attack where all i want to do it pull my hair out and slit my wrists. im attracted to people that remind me of my dad which means im attracted to people who remind me of my ex which means im going to be in this endless cycle of being put last no matter what. which means im going to be in this endless cycle of being belittled and told my problems are not real. which means i an not strong. which means i cannot keep it together, yes i put a smile on at get-togethers and Facebook and Snapchat but those filters saying im sad are not satire. they are all too true. i am deeply and internally sad and i don't care what chemical you put down my throat i will always be this way. i am sad. so stop telling me that i am strong just cause you don't see the scars and i haven't fucking offed myself. don't tell me that you're proud of me for keeping it together cause you only see what you want to see. stop calling me strong. stop telling me you're proud of me keeping it together through everything ive been through.
Poem (?)// stop calling me strong.
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