People mistake me for being arrogant when I’m just trying to be here, now. I’m not the kind of person who answers messages within an hour after receiving them. I don’t always answer my phone when I see that someone’s calling me. No matter how much I like making lists and being organized, truth is, I’m not very organized. Slowly starting to be okay with that.
I constantly have to remind myself to be present and I think for the first time in my life I actually know what that means. I think it’s a never ending journey, maybe even a battle, to constantly remind yourself what’s important and to be grateful for even the messy parts of life. And to forgive yourself when you forget. Maybe. I don’t know. But I’m working hard to be the best version of me, for me and all the people around me. Sometimes I fail and feel like I suck at absolutely everything. Then there are moments when I see everything clearly and that’s what keeps me going.