Yesterday was a day to end all days. Right from when I woke up it was already going downhill. It was too cold to do much of anything with the kids, so I thought we'd go to the next town for lunch and a movie. My kids have been having cabin fever lately due to the cold weather, so they were bouncing off the walls and crazy already.
Did I mention they've had this whole week off, too?
During the movie they hemmed and hawed, squirmed and proclaimed they were bored. Just being super ungrateful, and then when they complained that I didn't get them popcorn, I sat there stewing.
It takes about an hour to get home, and as soon as we started the drive I started crying out of frustration. I had to pull over on the highway twice to get my kids under control (yeah, clearly it did NOT work), and I was just done and wanted to be home where I could go into another room and just breathe and get myself under some sort of control.
But apparently the universe had other plans for me. All of a sudden a huge snow storm blew in, and shortly after cars were going left and right, and there was a horrifying moment when I was in the middle of it all. It was a huge pile up accident. Thankfully none of use hit each other, but as soon as I pulled over and was safe I whipped around to my kids held their hands and was so thankful we were okay.
One of my worst fears is being in an accident with my kids. Another fear (more of an anxiety) is being stuck somewhere where I can't get out. So needless to say, I was freaking out.
I didn't have my mala on me that day, but I had to do something. I asked my kids to join me in a quick meditation where we catch our breath and calm down. My kids weren't upset, but they were (still) being loud and rambunctious and it wasn't helping. And they actually listened and joined in.
And in that moment I knew this was suppose to happen to me. I was put in that spot to remind me to not take anything for granted. To remember to breathe. To appreciate my life, and my kids.
Yes I had a really bad day, but at the end I'm so incredibly lucky to have had the clarity and the chance to learn from it. (Healing Warrior Mama Mala)