When Adulting Happens
As I see more and more people coming out about the challenges they face or have faced at some point of time, I am motivated to talk about mine, for with time I have realised how important talking and discussing one’s own problems are. Talking might not solve your problem, but it sure does reduce the problem.
I have chronic depression and a history of alcoholism. The depression triggered again when I was awaiting my university results and everyone was concerned about my future, especially my relatives - couldn’t stop giving unsolicited advices and showing concern with questions like “Aage ka kya plan hai? Job hi better hai”. I used to already drink a lot and because of all the undue pressure from my family and relatives, I began resorting to alcohol and smoking even more. For instance, a few days ago when I came back from running, I had an anxiety attack as I had the thought of failing my semester and then my first instinct was to reach out for that packet of cigarettes, because the worst part is that I can’t even share this with my parents, because I don’t want them to be worried about me anymore and they were the worst 45 minutes of my life.
There was a time when I was an alcoholic drunkard, and I still resort to alcohol sometimes, but I am better now. I often think, how as a child we always wanted to grow up really soon and now here we are – messed up, fucked up, and struggling with our lives. More than often, I have wanted to hurt myself but only with time, I have realised the importance of life and its gifts and the power of positivity. I have realised the importance of thinking about small, little things that make me happy, and I have specially realised about the importance of talking. Anything and everything can be made better by talking about it and letting it out. So talk more, and stay happy. /
Written by: @unsans.scarred