For the first time in my life I have never shaken and burst out crying so hard as I did today. Today I woke up this morning to very tragic news, SHINee’s Kim Jonghyun was found dead in his apartment. Cause of death: Suicide. SHINee is a group that means so dear to me to me they are more than just a group that sings, dances, and produce music. To me they are a family and made me feel happier during my days when they were rough or when they good. I never would have imagined that Jonghyun would kill himself. I just still can’t process that he’s gone from this world. For those that don’t know him or know his work/group he was a very talented singer and a very kind hearted person that was very loved by the public. SHINee is possibly one of the most or if not the most beloved group in Asia and has been very influential since the beginning they truly are the kings. But today I realized that just because you admire someone and see them happy on screen or in person it does not mean they are happy. He was in a lot of pain and hid it until he couldn’t anymore and felt like he had no other choice. What he did was wrong, he affected so many people and has caused a great amount of pain from his loss but when you are mentally sick and depressed you don’t think twice before you commit. I am writing this letter to Jonghyun or to SHINee I am writing this to the people who are going to hard times or are depressed. Please, please do not kill yourselves. Think of the people that love you, the people who you have influenced, your family, your friends, your future, and most importantly yourself. Committing suicide should never be an option or a choice. Seek help and do something. If you need help look for it don’t hide it. Express your feelings and speak it out loud don’t hold it in. If you feel like you’re a nuisance you’re not because anyone that loves you would rather see you alive and fighting than seeing you gone. Jonghyun’s death has affected me so much that it’s all I’ve been able to think about. So many celebrities have died this year from suicide and I genuinely don’t want to this anymore. Please stop what you are doing and go look for someone to talk to.