While I’m cooking up all this new greatness , click the link in ya boys bio to watch the first video I ever directed and edited for myself and all that, if you ain’t see it yet. Idk about ya but I’m mad proud of me. And I love all of you. 🎥 @jayymanik@at_thegreat prod @rodtheproducer feat #Avery
#GappyBirthday to me. I’m a whole ass 25 today. This is big for me. I put a lot of pressure and expectation on myself just to get here and realize that the most important things in life is stuff like being yourself. Being present. Not second guessing. Staying calm. Appreciating what you have. Having a purpose. Being positive and hopeful. And all this could get lost in the bottomless Chasms of overthinking. Expectations. Doubts. Clitoral and or penile stimulation with external assistance from consenting sentient beings , distractions and all that saucesless shit that cascades over us in times where lessons need to be learned and growth needs to occur. But I’m here now. Standing in the moment of time that I looked towards at some point , attempting to shape this second that I’m currently existing in , in every way and with all that I’ve done, I’m just here , appreciating that I’m alive. That I have people who love me. That I have the freedom and the will to define my purpose and live a life that i can love if I allow myself to. It’s probably cliché to have breakthroughs on your birthday and what not but I’m really in a place where things are making sense. I just wanna say I appreciate you all. More than I usually do. Cause it’s easy to just disconnect and see names in a screen. But you’re other whole ass people , living entire lives, each of you with a whole world of your own and you take time out of your existence to care about some guy enough to follow him on his journey to be the greatest in the universe . I love all of you . I love myself. Also I’m a cartoon now 🐉 thank you @kg.ny for the photo 💜
Happy bday pops. You’ve been gone 3 times longer than I got to have you. As I get older and understand life more, I see another layer of who you are peeled back and I get an understanding. I miss you man. I wish we coulda spoke when I was an adult not just a boy. Idk what souls do honestly. I’m not religious. I’m not sure if you even was a spirit that stood lingering around that you could or would read instagram posts. I question if this is for you or for me or for the people watching. When it really comes down to it , I don’t know much. Maybe you didn’t either . But I know that I love you. I know that you loved me. I know that I have pieces of who you are inside of me. And I know that if you were here to tell me things, you’d be proud of who I’ll become. I’ll never let the world forget you. And I’ll never stop shaping who I am based off of who you were. You a whole GOAT . A whole person. And we wholeheartedly miss you. I love you and happy birth day.
In a world filled with manipulation, oppression, murder , rape , violence, ( murder and rape are violence I know but I preferred to type this instead of back spacing for some reason ) liars, backstabbers ( metaphorical of course cause that’s also violence if I was being literal and I’m not tryna be THAT redundant) unfulfilled dreams , shattered souls and so much other horrors, we still find time to just take pictures to look cool. Idk if it’s cause we are desensitized or cause we are strong but I prefer to think that we are so powerful , that even when the whole world is drowning , we can still find the will to dance in the rain. If you read this whole caption, comment a 🐉 emoji so I know ya can read 💜