happy mother's day. as some of you may know, my mom is in the hospital right now, in intensive care due to a pulmonary embolism, which is a blood clot in both of her lungs. i'm done using social media to portray some sort of fake happiness just so that people will think everything's alright. everything isn't alright. my mom could die today. after a long, treacherous, four year fight, this could be it. this could be what takes my mom's life. she is so tired. she is the strongest fucking woman i have ever met. she is so faithful to the Lord that while she is on a breathing machine that basically breathes for her, she wrote down scripture on the legal pad the ICU gave her, in the shakiest hand writing i've ever seen. she is a fighter. she's tried so hard. i am so angry, so exhausted in my faith. how could a loving God allow someone so undeserving to suffer to this extent? it will be hard for me to forgive Him for this.
so i encourage you all to just take a step back. look at everything from a new perspective. the things that we worry about on a daily basis mean NOTHING, like who hurt who's feelings, and who did this and who slept with who. literally WHO CARES!!!!! none of that matters! this is what matters. family and real life crises.
hug your mom today. hug her for me, because i can't hug mine, and who knows if i ever will again. cherish your mom and never ever let go.