How do I start...Granny, you were; everything to me. You would be yellow if I could call you a color. You weren’t a star, you were the sun. I will forever adore you and keep you in my heart till the day I die. I can’t believe this has happened. My heart is broken. Your favorite color was red. You liked tulips the best. You fancied your plants you grew. You always drunk black coffee. You simply were taken by your little chihuahua rascal. You also cursed like the sassy woman I knew you will always be. It hurts to know that everyone else seemed to know what you loved the most but you had forgotten. I will forever loathe the fact that the disease Alzheimer’s took the little life you had away from you. I will miss the way I could always go to you like a safe haven. You were my home. I knew I could always go to you for: anything. Granny, you were the most wonderful, glorious, kind hearted human being I have ever met. It was a privilege to get to live with you in my life this long. I am so unbelievably honored to be your granddaughter. As I was holding your hand today I couldn’t help but think that it was truly a blessing to have you as a grandma. You were so so precious to me and were the person that reminded me most of daddy. I miss him so much too. I will truly miss you Granny. Fly high my sweet angel. I love you so very very much. I hope you finally have some peace. I will forever remember the day I lost a iconic woman, September 19, 2018.
So I have something to confess since I know those people that will most likely argue back won’t be reading this exactly. My grandad who I barely know is in the hospital in critical condition with a failing heart and kidneys. He is currently getting a pace maker in and has lost his pulse several times, speaking so he should have been deceased already but is still fighting through which is good for my moms sake and his wife. I barely know this man and hold sympathy for him only because my mom so helplessly wishes for him to be okay even though he has managed to do her wrong so many times. The sympathy that I hold for him is only because it hurts me to see my mom hurting like this, so I guess I forgive this man that’s supposed to be my grandad whom I barely know but out of pity that he’s never got to be part of my life or my moms so yes, I don’t want to but I forgive you. So with that I guess I can let the fact go that I’ve held a grudge against this man that’s most likely the reason for this tore up family. So yeah, I’m done with that now. Please pray for my grandad for my moms sake.
It’s been 2 and a half years and some months and I’m still not over it. You were the best dad anyone could ask for, you went too young. I miss you with all my heart, I hope it’s nice up there in heaven. You were always so goofy and knew how to make any situation better with a laugh and I miss that about you so much. I was only a couple years young when I lost you but I still appreciate everything you’ve done for me in that short amount of time. I love you. I hope your proud of me dad. Happy Fathers Day.