My brother Matthias and I on the ledge half way up on »Via del Pesce« [The Fish] on Marmolada Southface, a week after I did the route in free solo. That day we came back with @wilhelmheiko to take some pictures, which was definitely a bit nerve-wracking for both of them. As I did the »Fish Free Solo« 11 years ago and @lasportivagram already posted a nice story for the anniversary last Sunday I want to follow with a further insight about that pretty tough time, based on a chapter out of my book »Südwand«:
My character was still very introverted but the people around me pushed me to open my personality. But I wanted to stay and be the same. Climb, enjoy and follow my dreams and personal projects without thinking too much of other things. But this seemed to be harder than before.
Even the time was filled with a great climbing shape, mentally and physically, it was also filled with so much pressure, self-doubt, depressions and the wish to have my ‘old life‘ back. I could already see the end of that spiral, which led into a giant, dark hole without an end and a no longer working body.
My closest friends and my brother were the people who helped me to find slowly a way out. And I remember that day like it was yesterday when tears streamed down my face and I felt relieved that the chance was finally here to escape from that hole out into a place with much more light.