Part 2..... On the border of Sweden and Finland near Karasuendo is a church. You walk across the bridge and youre in another country. Its a fine line - kind of fitting. The line between the material and spiritual is fine too. The Church is stunning. Looking at where we're staying online I was instantly 'pulled' to the building. During our stay I knew I had to go inside. It's decades since I've been in a Church. I spent 3 days photographing it and the lights from outside. I guess I'm a lost sheep. On the second to last night I followed my heart and went in. Something told me to kneel at the Altar. I sensed peace. I looked up at a lecturn with a Bible on it and wether I'm supposed to or not something said open it - there's a message for you. Again, like it or not I took a picture of the pages because they were of course in Swedish. I paid my respects and left. When I got back to the room I translated: Psalms 23: The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, For you are with me; your rod and your staff, They comfort me.
You prepare a table before me In the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
I shivered. Maybe one day I'll stop feeling so lost. And whatever it is in my soul that keeps me feeling that way will be fulfilled. Maybe someday I'll find my way back.... I walked back across the bridge to Finland with the peace that at least I know know my direction. I have a compass. Nuala will always be alive in my heart. Life is a journey. Not a destination. Amen.
Sometimes we share things that means a lot to us. The last few days have been the most incredible experience. I am very grateful. I have never been 'religious', but I have I guess always had a spiritual understanding. I know that there's something bigger. I know the possibility that this world is not what we think it is, whether you're a scientist, spiritualist or Christian. When I look into the eyes of my dogs I know that feeling of there being something 'more' is out there beyond the material that is presented to us everyday. I miss my Sunshine. I have always known that this life is a fine line between the material possessions and status that the World tells us we need to be happy, and those things (call it wisdom) that come from inside that sustain us as we grow old and the possessions and status are taken from us. Death comes to us all. I guess I search for meaning in things because I know how fleeting wealth and fame is. I have also spent most of my life feeling worthless, and empty. Like I'm missing something. This week I got to see the Northern Lights. I cant describe them and no picture can convey their beauty. The eyes of the Huskies we met reminded me the way my Girl used to see right into my soul. In those moments I know that a feeling is more valuable than a new Coat or Car. I know what's valuable and what isn't.... On the border of Sweden and Finland near Karasuendo is a church. You walk across the bridge and youre in another country. The line between the material and spiritual is fine too. The Church is stunning. Looking at where we're staying online I was instantly 'pulled' to the building. During our stay I knew I had to go inside. It's decades since I've been in a Church. I spent 3 days photographing it and the lights from outside. I guess I'm a lost sheep. On the second to last night I followed my heart and went in. Something told me to kneel at the Altar. I sensed peace. I looked up at a lecturn with a Bible on it and wether I'm supposed to or not something said open it - there's a message for you..... Part 2... #faith#huskies#husky#irishwolfhound#church#photooftheday
Today was one the most incredibly moving experiences of my life. I'm trying to process how I feel right now. I know that animals read your soul. But there's something about 'Wolf' Dogs that see right through you. They have a particularly powerful resonance for me. The lone wolf. My Wolfie was there for me through some of the darkest days of my life. Everyone knows how much I love my dogs. But today, was something else. I got to drive and was blown away. But what hit me most was the wisdom of the kennel master. I was close to tears anyway. But then he showed me that one of the middle pair in his team (to the right in the picture) was blind. "You can stroke him, but he feels with his teeth. Don't worry, he won't bite you". Then he told me that his brother is the one up front, and that he pairs well with the one at his side. And that even though he can't see, there is no reason he can't do a job. He follows, and works in the team. "And he trusts me, he knows I won't hurt him. We won't hit a tree or anything like that...". To think.... That wisdom. He could have so easily been cast aside. Keep Faith. Every dog has its day. #wisom#faith#huskies#lapland#finland#snow#husky#irishwolfhounds#irishwolfhoundsofinstagram#wolf#spirit#team#prayer#dogs#photooftheday
In all the thousands of photos that I have taken I have never quite captured your eyes: There's so much darkness in the world. And yet you look upon it with so much joy. So much innocence. I see your Mommy looking back at me. There are many reasons and examples that I could give you to say otherwise. The world isn't always so kind as Wolfies. You look upon me with those gems but I really don't deserve it. But in your eyes, I see - I know it's going to be OK. #irishwolfoundsofinstagram#hope#faith#prayer#eyes#irishwolfhoundpuppy#irishwolfhound#imissyou#missingsomeone#poetry
I think you would probably be disappointed in me. That's what makes me sad. I'm not doing what you taught me... Because even now I still let them make me feel not good enough. Even though you were the queen of not caring what anyone else thought. You were fire. You were divine. All the golden curls in your mane could never be dulled by anyone. You would Wade into a fight with five other dogs and not even bat an eye. The whole world could try and convince you were nothing, and yet you still had that fight. You spent hours locked in a basement all by yourself, they treated you so badly, yet the light shone from your eyes. You knew what you wanted and you just went and got it. But even though you could crush bones if you wanted, you were so gentle. You still wouldn't stand for any kind of nonsense. You defended yourself to the hilt. You didn't care for possessions, and didn't measure yourself by any other dog. You were fierce. Even though you were kind. And yet here I am, worrying. Afraid of the pain. Thinking too much about their opinions. Who they think I should be. Who they want me to be. And when I should be thinking how you would react to anyone who tried to dull your curls, instead I'm not being honest with myself. I need to be more confident. I need to believe in myself. Like you believed in me.... I hope you're still up there. Looking down. Running beside me in the dark. I hope you visit me from time to time, when I wake in the middle of the night. Just like you used check on me. And most of all, when my back is against the wall, and I might doubt myself, I feel your fire in my soul that says... Never give up. Never back down. Believe in yourself. Once more into the fray... Into the last great fight I'll ever know... Live and die on this day. Live and die on this day. #irishwolfoundsofinstagram#irishwolfhound#poetry#believeinyourself#faith#believe#prayer
A thousand firey sunsets All the breaks of dawn that we've seen All the photographs that don't capture What you meant to me A million special moments Cherished a second at a time A whole gallery of memories Won't dry the tears from my eyes
A hundred times we made it We found the horizon through the trees It won't undo the sadness For the dreams we didn't achieve And two hundred notes to say Thank You Won't change every time I didn't say enough A dozen times that I prayed... I still couldn't avoid a broken heart And despite a million different promises Spoken while staring into your soul There was nothing that could stop it coming Change comes looking for us all... For every candle in the darkness As if we wandered through fields of gold We couldn't stop the wick burning out And the nights drawing in cold It's not OK It hurts I would do anything for you But in the end I know Only acceptance numbs the pain I accept that I have to let you go... A thousand times it felt like choosing Sometimes the moon outdoes the stars Every gift that I could buy you I never felt worthy of your love And all the times I cherished you Because I knew you would be gone someday Everytime Id walk through hailstorms just to see you It was never going to make you stay So many times we walked for miles Like we had all the time in the world Nothing could stop time ticking really Time makes a fool of us all... And everytime I stop and stared at you Like an angel had crossed my path There was no way I could keep that feeling alive Time hates for anything to last
And I could beseech the very stars That promised to light my way But now the only bit of hope that I have Is we will meet again in the light someday... And even though I know you loved me And to me you are my whole world I can't escape the emptiness Of you not being here anymore... It's not OK It hurts I would do anything for you But in the end I know Only acceptance numbs the pain I accept that I have to let you go... GD
I like to run in the dark. Last night, I ran and ran until I stopped. Turning off the road, illumated by the streetlights I ran into the forest... I always like the feeling of my eyes settling so I can just see the path in the moonlight. I always feel free... Like I'm liberated somehow. People equate darkness with fear. The monster under the bed. Like pulling the sheets over your head, or leaving the landing light on when you were a kid. When I run its like I'm facing mine head on. The only way I can really manifest all my fears, my mistakes, everything... The darkness never scares me. All alone in the darkness, I feel free of any burden. I have always been fascinated by these verses:. .------------- "Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul" - Henley .------------ "He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee." - Neitzche .------------- "This is a world where nothing is solved, where time is a flat circle and everything we ever do, or have ever done, we do over and over and over again. Where you touch darkness and darkness touches you back" - McShane ------------- It has always fascinated me the idea of darkness. Monsters. How bad can it get? What if all my worries, all my fears were just figments of my imagination? And really all this time everything was going to be okay? So when I run tonight, I'll stop and stand there for a minute in the dark. In the middle of nowhere... And breathe. Just me and my darkest fears. Im going to run toward them. Not away. And that will bring me peace. #fear#poetry#irish#spirit#faith#hope#irishwolfhounds#irishwolfhound
Faith: That feeling that no matter how tough it gets... You will still wake up and breath tommorrow. The sun will rise and you will have everything that you need. And even though it feels like you're at the end of your tether, maybe you're just being taught how strong you are and what you really need to survive... Hope: Even with one string, you can still play a note. Focus on your dreams. They will give you strength. Acceptance: Maybe you aren't where you want to be. Stop measuring yourself against others. For every person you want to be... The guy with the better job, the bigger house, the faster car... There's someone starving on the other side of the world that would treasure the breakfast you're eating right now. Maybe we all have something to learn from what we don't have, as well as what we do. You're precisely where you need to be, keep going with an open mind. Strength: Being kind. Understanding from your own failures that everyone is fighting their own battles. Help. Lift others. Don't bring them down. If you felt like you were all alone, use that to make sure noone else around you feels it... If you know what its like to feel worthless, protect others from that feeling. When all is said and done noone will remember you for the house you lived in, or the car that you drove... They will remember you for the way that you made them feel. Your money won't echo in eternity, but your goodwill will. And if you ever feel you have no direction at all, remember that it's only in the darkness that we get to see the stars. #irishwolfhounds#hope#faith#meditation#today#present#moment#remember#keepgoing#bigdogs#irishwolfhoundsofinstagram#prayer#wisdom