Mr.J@jayzakh

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Your love was sweet like honey. But with that taste came a thick covering of myself until I became a sculpture of what you desire. I tried to announce myself apart from you countless times but each time, I stuck with you even more so. These stings hurt ten fold when I know I cannot escape it. I can only beg, plead, ask for your mercy to free me in this entrapment you have me in. I became your bee as you were my bee keeper. But a bee is never solo as I realize I was just a minor part of the colony you were keeping from my eyes. I was flying blind in bliss but for that moment it didn't matter because I tasted false bliss to my heart's content

Model: @allyshaleonard

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30

Trying to fade into the crowd while you were with me was a favorite hobby of yours. Time and time again I tried to chase you to stop you from merging into a stranger's face. Unknowingly I set foot into a storm I could never esacpe from. Imbued with electricity, I forfeited any strentgh I had to hold onto you. They said lightning doens't strike twice yet it has no limit when I was the rod it seeked. Accepting this fate of mine, I become the eye of the storm happily bathing in the reflection of myself, even as it's covered with the numerous natural tattoos given by lightning itself

model: @eliiiijo

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43

Pavements were only a suggestion of what we should follow not a law. You saw the flaw in the off beat path I decided to take and let my hand go so you can stay on ground that wasn't as fragile as mine. I don't blame you even if some nights I feel the look in your eyes as life parted us as if we were mere twigs on the road.  Even if I'm one day lost in this directionless path, I have my heart set on what it may bring. I wish you could have seen that instead of your perceived notion that I was delusional trying to reach for the stars, yet I wish you the heavens above to shine your path even if it might bring darkness to mine

Model: @suppgaiah

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31

I remembered when I used to watch the sunset with excitement, wondering what the next day will bring. These days is a remainder that tomorrow is more of the same with slight variations. I've grown accustomed to this routine. I don't want to live in this cycle I have accidentally created. The worse part is I persuaded myself with the influence from the whispers of others that this is where I belong and that leaving it doesn't make sense. So tell me, without the hope of change, why does my heart not belong in this senseless existence? I yearn to see the sunset gleamed with hope for the next adventure the dawn shall bring me

Model: @bibi_kun_

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35

I woke up this morning dreading on this life I have to live. The days where all I could do is dream and plan for the future. I've become so entwined in trying to be who an adult is supposed to be that I forgot how to be the kid that keeps the fire burning. Is it too late to light my mantra again? I want to be more than judt living these reptitive tasks assgined to me just for the privilege of not being without a home. What if my home was far away in the dreams that I yearn to live so much? Call me reckless, but I'd rather live in color than In black and white with all the money to spare

Model: @gypsy_danger

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93

The footprints you left me has left me dazed and confused. Am I to follow you with pleading arms for a touch of your embrace or should I walk opposite of them hoping to never cross paths with you ever again? Do I beg to be loved or do I love the state that you left me in? Your answer is as clear as the nile once was but my emotions want to clutter it with the hope of a false sense of security. I can't keep you in my mind if I want to live a somewhat normal life despite this agonizing gash you left me. So I bury the memories of you in this pyramid as the grave of our love hoping that no one tries to pry it open, even if it is you

Model: @gehinnom

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14

My mind wanders in infinite directions while I tend to barely concede to one. What way is right and what way is the path I adore? Every tug rips me a piece of me out. I vent to the open sky that swallows up my cries yet returns nothing for me to feed off of. I've lost more than I was rewarded . If you think of me, I can live on even if my remnants is left in memories
Models: @datdeerdoe & @suppgaiah
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35

Am I pretty enough now? Do I meet your standards? I remember you said I wasn't good enough so I tried my best to not be me. Everything I was, I ceased to be for the sake of being a suitable fit to your desires. I don't want to be discarded nightly after our deed is done. I want to feel like I can offer more to you, I want to be a choice rather than an option. Though when you finally accepted me, I realized the me of yesterday was flawed yet perfect in it's own way. I have to discard this prized yet cursed shell that was built to infiltrate your heart because it burned my soul to ashes in the process

Model: @Arial.jade

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32

I can flourish without the aid of the sun but it doesn't mean I desire to.  When I bloom, isn't meant to be physically or mentally. I become the peak of this flower of mine when I have fulfilled myself without any outside influence. Even though I might end up going into a lifetime of resets. I rather burn it down than start on the soil of charity which will undermine this forest I'm intent on growing into a squared identical plot where I'll wilt just like all others that give up on their far fetched dreams

Model/Concept: @bibi_kun_
MUA: @makeupbyanaesbeydi
Published by: @thesurrealmag
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15

Someone once asked me why I don't take a break and slow down. It's because slowing down means losing altitude and ending up back in the place I tried so hard to escape from. I'm not a shining star that everyone thinks of me, I just want to go to places I've never been before for that is living to me.  Perhaps in my mind there is no below for me, no going back. I don't want to lose these wings even if I burn into the atmosphere as I'm chasing the person who I think I can be, who I should be.

Model: @kanakozlowski
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39

I woke up recently fearing death and it's been eating my thoughts as if it was just around the corner. To me, it feels like its the end more than a beginning of something new. Everything stops, this mind of mine will halt and disintegrate back into the earth where my ancestors lay wait. Is it wrong to want to be immortal? Maybe I'm scared of it not because it's the end of life but the end of the dreams I ride so high on. So forgive me if I act like it's the last day on earth for it very well may be mine

Model: @diamond.ho
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17

I remember I used to look up to you like you were some sort of perfect invincible unbeatable hero that could never lose. I was looking forward to everything you had to offer and how you can take me to the skies above. I was so enamored with your mythical being that I didn't notice your lies falling from the sky. You were indeed invincible but even my pleading you did not halt for I was just a pit stop to you. You left a hole in the sky where you shined above me and I scramble to find something to fill it in. Sometimes I think that there should be a rip in the sky for time has become distorted ever since my hero turned into a villain

Model: @_larosaaa_
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