KhrystyAna@khrystyana

~ model | love advocate
This is safe space
Founder of #theREALcatwalk
📍NYC @statemgmt
LONDON @milkmodelmanagement
INQRS : emailkhrystyana@gmail.com

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THE Last and FINAL PART aof 3 @eats.channel by @chrisapplebaum
It was such an interesting experience sharing this recovering, new, empowered, healing side of me with you. I’m not gonna lie, it was scary because I knew that a lot of “slut shaming “ comments would come my way, some people were so uncomfortable with these videos, they chose to unfollow my account. I can’t blame them. I was too in that same mud of feelings for many years. Rusted old Shame and feelings of ancient taught guilt whenever the topics had anything to do with “sexy or sex” . My oldest friends know.. I’d only wear baggy clothes to hide away my body. As a sexual assault survivor it was a necessary step for me. This is how I protected myself. And I have much compassion for anyone going through similar rollercoaster of emotions. You know what you need for your healing process best: sometimes it takes to slut shame somebody, to get those emotions out : I’m here for you still. Sometimes it’s to hide away : I’m here for you still. Sometimes it’s to do something scary and put the sexiest outfit on , face your fears and reclaim what’s YOURS , and YOURS ONLY: your body. Your true ally. Your closest, your dearest mate. Whatever you need. We are already strong,it just takes us time to remember. Sending all of you my warmest love. We are here for each other : whichever feelings we must to go through: from anger to admiration. We are here. Together —- KhrystyAna
— p.s: thank you Chris for being so open minded , gentle and kind, throughout the entire pre production, filming and post production of these videos! You helped me grow and were a stepping stone in rebuilding my confidence. You are truly a blessing. Keep on going and sharing your art! I’m in your corner too —— hair @mrredbeard Mua @tommymakeup_ Styling @gemmalouise_may Edit @jpeg.josh #kale#eatyourgreens#eats#foodie#veganrecipes#confidence#selflove#selfcare#vidoeedit#fashionvideo#fashionfilm#beautyvideo#eating#salad#setlife#studio#movement#dance#song#queenlatifah#chicago#noshame#noguilt#power


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“ A Model with a Purpose” PART 2
Somebody called me these words this morning when I was making my way home to New York. First thought in my head “well, everyone has a purpose”, then I took a second to appreciate what was said to me:”why do I rush to discard this young man’s compliment so quick?” What he said was a heartfelt feeling of honesty he shared with me. I thought “wow, the traces of low self esteem within me.. I need to own up to my reality and start appreciating my own intensions ” . Today I want to say “I AM a model with a purpose”. Almost every post, every photo I’m in, thoughts I share have a collection of reasons why I find it of value to share. For example, this Kale 🥬 munching video is loaded with delicious layers of hints about self appreciation, appreciation for life. Chris and I collaborated on every detail to make this Eats video not only comfortable and empowering for me but also for anyone who can relate. I have a long history of food traumas, related to these curves of mine for example. I genuinely enjoy Kale and it’s easily one of my most favorite foods (as is watermelon).Kale is exciting to me because growing up in Siberia, I’ve never heard of this mysterious superpower food. I fell in love with it here in US. But eating it in public often forced people to comment worse like “oh you must be in on a diet”. As if Kale is not a likable food. It Anyways. Sharing this video was to share something vulnerable with you. Some may relate to my story and that was my purpose. To tell you: you aren’t alone. You are lovable ! Let’s take care of our bodies the way we want. Yeah? So I’ll take the young man’s compliment today. A model with a purpose - yours, KhrystyAna. Video @eats.channel by @chrisapplebaum mua @tommymakeup_ hair @mrredbeard style @gemmalouise_may edit @jpeg.josh #kale#foodporn#selfesteem#confidence#fashionvideo#fashionfilm#videoedits#song#queenlatifah#veganrecipes#yummy#foodie#eatyourgreens#greens#salad#studio#onset#setlife#modellife#curves#curvy#movement


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PART III Famous EATS @eats.channel by fabulous @chrisapplebaum ... what a freeing experience it was to tap into this wild open honest side of me. Thank you Chris and fantastic Team : #film by @chrisapplebaum makeup @tommymakeup_ hair @mrredbeard edit by @jpeg.josh styled by @gemmalouise_may in @honeybirdette #eats#kale#salad#fashionfilm#fashionvideo#video#film#theotherside#onset#setlife#modelbehavior#nextlevelfierce#nlf#stretch#movement#dance#foodporn#littleblackdress#highheels#lace#thighhighs#foodie


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Los Angeles ? Are you there ? Anyone? Cool fun plans tonight? What’s cooking ? Because this one is hungry !!! and NYc ran out of watermelons ...- photo by @spencerostrander #la#travel#traveller#losangeles#denim#jeans#denimjacket#studio#studiolife#setlife#portfait#casual#lifestyle#curves#modellife#modelonduty#letsgo#westcoast#pocket#setup#hangoutfest#pose#curvemodel#nlf#denimondenim


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ego is the cause of our division
and as we remove the ego we come together
Ego is the cause of all wars.
pride is ego and is the cause of all conflicts ... remove the ego and we remove the division
people will wake up when they no longer want to cause themselves pain ... i want to wake up to waking up. Every day - love you. Khrystyana video by @don.ixon —- #fakesmile #video#fashionfilm#dance#ego#selfish#selfless#classicalmusic#dramatic#cinema#videoedits#videos#studio#setlife#beautyshoot#beautyvideos#emotional#movement#background#daze#modellife#awareness#conciousness#selflove#oneness#videographer#filmmaker#dancing#inspired by #margotrobbie


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Confidence.
Is it fluid like cantaloupe watercolor paint ?
Permanent like mother’s forgiving love ?
Is it securely fixed like our tender hearts under bare bones of longevity? Is it firm? Is it firm? Or is it an inhale and an exhale of a heart beat, grows large as Mount Everest and shrinks to the size of Wolffia.
One minute this body breathes generous movement, in it’s nakedness and the moment after almost shamefully fixing the skirt down to cover my scarred knees from everyone’s eyes, even my own. Who triggers the firm? Who triggers the soft? whose voice is telling me to act smaller, to hide talents, to silence my voice? What do i fear? What do you fear? ——- Khrystyana
P.s. And to answer my own question I wanted to peel away the many fears I have faced over years of childhood and adulthood .. various rejections, occasional losses : friends, parental love, lovers, money, reputation, home, food, health, respect .. thought these were my fears to find out that for me there was one core fear that gave birth to many other fears. The deep deep fear of abandonment: to float in space unconnected to another conscious being for eternity ... Sounds so simple but this is what I found .. to help me understand what I value the most : connection. I donno.. confidence feels like one of the sister antonyms to a fear ... just a thought. I can be wrong. Are you comfortable talking about your fears? —- photo by @bymannyroman mua @paris_ariadne_artistry #fears#confidence#thoughts#philosophy#saturday#goodmorning#bedroom#bedroomeyes#sleepy#zen#thinking#naturallight#portraitphotography#hotelroom#bedsheets#resting hair color @jenna.mast of @premahair #mindfulness#awareness #conciousness


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You will hardly ever see me at events, parties and such .. the curse of a social introvert. Not that I don’t want to - I do , I really do but my body reacts and I just almost always stay home, even for my birthday. Work,charitable events (when i have a task) or educational events though have a completely different affect on me. I wonder what it is ; my brain is focused and social anxiety disappears during such events .. yet the moment , say a panel is over, the overwhelm comes back and i just rush back home to recharge by being silent for a bit. Can anyone can relate here ? Do your friends take it personally? Have people called you weird? How do you reply? Have you tried to change? Why? Do we have to? Just wondering to what you have to say. I’ve accepted my ways overall but sometime I try to get myself out there still, just not sure it the change is possible. — love ya, k. Photo by @annaritsch from @girlbossrally event (where i learned a bunch a ran out before the party began .. i heard it was a blast ) was invited by @lovcosmetics wearing @marina.rinaldi @personabymr and @foleyandcorinna #streetstyle #look #todayimwering #outfit #denim #jacket #clothes #style #styling #jeans


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Mesmerizing pasts have nothing on us,
we are a collection of 200 000 year old stories.
Our questions have been answered long ago,
yet we chase our hearts into distractions;
fascinating, delicious, fatal destructions;

To only reclaim our thrones, in the Kingdom of love. Never ending, applicable to all kingdom of acceptance and compassion .... —— khrystyana ❤️👁❤️ Photo by @bymannyroman mua @paris_ariadne_artistry wearing @marina.rinaldi @personabymr @marinabulatkina #streetstyle#nyc#newyorker#blackandwhite#film#bandw#blackandwhitephotography#jacket#coat#littleblackdress#todayiwore#currentlywearing#outfit#blackoutfit#newyorklife#manhattan


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@intheknowbyaol thank you for spreading the love of #therealcatwalk . My heart is continually happy and energized from the positivity and kindness that has been shared over the past 2 weeks from The Real Catwalk preps , meet ups, conversations, model workshops and THE actual day. Our community is a beauty . Join us and celebrate all beauty around the globe! Where is our catwalk going next??? What city? What country? —— together we Strut —- #togetherwestrut#onelove#family#oneworld#beauty#humanfamily#community#celebration#love#empowerment#selflove#runway#runwaymodels#truebeauty#earth


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Hey beauties !!! Exciting NEWS!!! I’m on the cover of Salty this month!!! AND I wanted to share my cover with all ALL the babes that stormed the runway at #theREALcatwalk in Times Square on Saturday - so this month, instead of just ONE cover star, Salty has thirty (THREE ZERO!!) covers stars! Y E S PLEASE!!!!!! @salty.world is a newsletter, so sign up through the link in their bio for the full feature! I really like reading it very positive everything time!! No go congratulate your cover-stars !!! #therealcatwalk #togetherwestrut #salty#30saltycoverstars#cover#publiahed#supermodels#muses#mybeauties thank you Claire for this opportunity!!!! These covers were shot straight after the real catwalk ended in Times Square :D cool? Many thanks to @roamans @womanwithin @kingsizedirect @swimsuitsforall pics @jesspettway


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Holiday season is all about generous love, compassionate friendships, unity and family.. we are all about it :D Hope these images will spark some lovely emotions within you :D .. im just sitting here and smiling. These fantastic people taught me so much patience, kindness, understanding, gratitude, self confidence over the past two weeks of bonding while planning our remarkable event . Love you love you loooveeee you ❤️❤️❤️ —— 🐈 👠 ——-#therealcatwalk #togetherwestrut ——- photos @hollygotgrace (PLEASE help me TAG the models i tagged by typing In CAPiTAL letters for me to quickly spot “TAG and @ person ) :D #models#strut#runway#timesquare#togetherness#love#onelove#oneworld#bodyimage#empowerment#humanfamily#siblinghood#truelove#loveeachother#holiday#santahat#bikini#fashionshow


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Ok .. sharing these last ones for today !!!! Way more to come tomorrow. First pic is me surrounded with the real cat walk show openers and closers 🤗🤗🤗 .#therealcatwalk veterans @seanasteele and @couvertier_louis both doing the show for the 3rd time. They strut it when it was 7 of us.. later with 34 of us and now over 200 more of us! This LOVE we are expressing is contagious !!! Every one of us is on our individual path of self love and self expression, and I am happy that this platform that we collectively created serves as a safe space and home for us to just be, celebRate our being. Yesterday’s real catwalk was opened by @iamjarijones , whom I kept running into over #nyfw months and who impressed me with her beautiful kind energy !!! —- special thanks to two incredible people behind the scenes @kristyn.elyse and @dyacyk ( of course many of of you amazing souls I will continue to list ) for putting so much work into making this happen! Also thank you @norahlovesmakeup_mua for my makeup , I usually look like a hot mess that didn’t sleep for days planning the event !!! PAhhh u saved me!!! Thank you @swimsuitsforall for giving me your swimsuit and @ellosusa for the red jacket !!! And @pacificabeauty for sending gifts to our models !!! Im so thankful and can’t wait to share more of the images with you (these pics are from @hollygotgrace ) !!!! #togetherwestrut #timessquare #models #together#onelove#people#onefamily#oneworld#bikini#show#fashionshow#loveyou#loveeachother#kindness l#inclusivity #therealcatwalk #catwalk (help me TAG the models PLEASE by typing in CAPITAL to T A G then if I missed anyone you know )


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