you know when you actively think about something example: what your going to eat for dinner, what your doing tomorrow, or a question someone asks you, etc. i don’t think i actively think about h, he’s just always there. my whole mind is just him , cheesy sure, but very true. i’m just so thankful; because i can literally feel myself releasing tension when i see a picture of him . he stabilizes me. i’m just so so grateful. alrighty.
i hope h had a good sleep i miss him
my anxiety/social anxiety is high key killing me.
happy 1 year of dunkirk
really not sure how active i’m going to be. crap
i’m wearing h’s merch and this lady working in the kitchen came up to me smiling saying she loved it i feel so proud wearing his stuff omg
i hope everything is okay with liam cheryl and bear
my love is back in london!!
i feel like i was kinda unnecessarily grumpy today, sorry here’s some monet , it’s called The Japanese Footbridge and Water Lily Pool, Giverny . it was painted in 1899 , lol curtesy of google arts and culture .
i just watched the place beyond the pines and wow, that was a trip. the whole movie you just carry this huge feeling of sadness for them and for the mom and idk i might not be understanding correctly but she said that her sons life would be ruined because of everything, but he was 1? He could have grown up the way his mom wanted him to but he didn’t because she thought his life was already ruined? I’m probably wrong. And the cops son, did he turn the way he is because his dad never resolved what he was feeling when he was a baby? idk, Just watching it all spiral was insane. like every next step that happened was the worst possible outcome, like the son tracked down his dads old friend which led him down more and more. idk this paragraph is probably incoherent, i’m so tired and my brain hasn’t been working right for the past day lmao . this movie is just so crazy though. you feel for all of them, the mom the dad the boyfriend the babies the cop the two sons and you hope that it all works out for them, you see the mom and her boyfriend and their daughter and son and see she has a career and everything seems to be good so you hope that it can all work out and every reward the cop got builds on top of the guilt because deep down he knows it’s not what it seems and at the end the expression on his sons face you can see the same look and then it builds on to him and then the other son goes and buys a bike and it just spirals and it’s really sad but i hope in whatever universe they are in that they all found happiness somehow, i hope that the two boys find happiness and what they are looking for but safely, and i