I was a fresh daisy girl .. now look what you’ve done to me
Like my poledancing shirt?
*Heres a photo of me 2 years ago when I was going to pride haha*
Since it is pride month I figure I could say my coming out story because gosh it’s been a lot finding myself.: First, I would like to address I am bisexual. But earlier on I thought I was just a lesbian
Ever since I was a little girl, I felt kind of different. I always liked being around girls and hanging out with them a lot more. I never really talked to boys all that much but I knew in my head I had to eventually. I always made my barbies kiss each other and stare at a womanly figure as a kid, I was amazed by girls. I liked my first girl in 7th grade(haha she follows me and I told her before so I hope she forgot ) and like I wanted to hold her hand and be with her. It felt different and I was so scared liking her because I thought I was going to be the only one in middle school who liked girls. I used to make my favorite cartoon characters gay together and really encouraged it.I eventually stopped liking her because we drifted and I was forcing myself to be straight. Then 8th grade came and I fell MADLY in love with the new girl(which by the way we dated and yeah I can be a bitch about it haha but at a point of my life she made me happy) At that time I knew I liked girls. My friends found out cause I kept staring at her and because of my Instagram photos I liked fricken Kayla and Jaime . The whole time this was happening my family had no idea until one day I kind of slipped up saying I liked a girl. My family did tease me a bit and I felt a little bit rejected but as time moved on they became serious about it. They would ask me “How’s you and *insert girls name* doing?” Kind of a thing. Once me and that girl dated, they totally accepted me. I can not be thankful enough to have an amazing family who has accepted me for who I am today.(How I found out I was bisexual.. let’s just say one day I found out guys aren’t so bad.) they don’t care if I love a man or woman, as long as I am happy. I know there are people out there that don’t get the benefit I do, but I want everyone to be happy and be themselves. I hope my story can help out othersmessage me if you need any support (: i am here
June 1st, 2018. First baby Col, now you?): oh Granni. You fought and fought you strong woman thank you so much for everything you have done in my life. You have encouraged me to keep fighting and do my best. You have always bragged about how I was your favorite grandchild even when Remy was born. Thank you for keeping me in a special place in your heart. You are the most amazing grandma I could ever have. Thank you for spoiling me, taking me out to eat after school, watching me as a little girl. Always playing your Hawaiian music and cooking up your delicious cucumber soup and beefstew. I hate to see you go. But now I know you’re in peace you lived your life and you are so so loved by many thank you for helping me and accepting me into the growing woman I am today. Thank you for giving your heart into everything you do and being there when we needed it. I will always remember you singing majesty, holding me when I had nightmares, you driving me to school in the morning and picking me up. You helped out my mom so much when I was a baby and thank you so much for being in my life. It’s so hard to see you go.. I’m sorry you wanted to live to see me graduate and you know what, you will see me graduate in Heaven I love you so much, Granni. I will always keep you in my heart and wear the beautiful earrings you always give me. Please guide my mom and her sisters, it’s been a hard time. Visit me in my dreams and have fun yelling at baby col up there Rest In Peace and I’ll definitely see you one day I love you.
Don’t let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace. ~
My cat is aesthetic as f~ photo credit: @hiwalabam
Pretty lit night~
When the world was at war, we just kept dancing~
I can’t believe you’re gone at just twenty three. I have shared so many amazing moments with you, Baby Cole. I will miss you so much. I love you endlessly and I will never forget this day of losing you. I know you will guide me to do my best. You will look down from heaven to watch me graduate, to watch Remy grow up into a beautiful woman. I’ll miss your singing and the way you would scream my fully name across the house. You would tell me what to wear... I love you bubba Love your annoying cousin I can’t wait to see you when my time comes (: ~3.18.18~#kaalelestrong