This is the garden that has been nourishing and healing my body. The amazing @hayleygemma has been making regular deliveries from her magical organic garden at the #hippiestonehome to my Mumma’s house in the burbs of the city. How lucky I am to be filled up everyday with her veggies and herbs. She also makes flower essences and tonics and spins a whole lot of earthy goodness. Thank you Hayley my lovely. You are truly a goddess and I love you. I’ve also been gifted regular deliveries of jamu (an amazing anti inflammatory turmeric tonic) from @jennysjamu 🌞🌞🌞 // I have the best people on team Bec. Thank you 💗 #plantmedicine#letfoodbethymedicine#dontpanicitsorganic
Happy birthday to me! 34 today. I have already had the most beautiful day. Feeling so much love from my nearest and dearest. I can’t believe I ever made a big deal over not wanting to get older. Every day is a gift and getting older is a privilege - not everyone is so lucky. So I am counting my blessings today and you bet I’m looking forward to my next birthday and the next and the next until hopefully I resemble a happy sultana in old age. 🌞 (me and my darling girl captured by @TrinaCaryphotography )
These were yesterday’s roadside finds as I walked over to my kinesiology healing... all kinds of perfection right there. Hundreds of these flowers all their beautiful faces following the sun, stopping me in my tracks! I’ve always appreciated the beauty of the world around me, but along with the lows of my diagnosis come some spectacularly euphoric highs. Tears of joy when I eat something delicious, at the crescendo of my favourite songs, when I’m with my family my darling girl Zavian, my amazing friends... life is beautiful folks...
Today was hard. I fell asleep not worried in the slightest about today’s surgery, but I woke up emotional and afraid. Today I had something called an infusaport implanted in my chest. This little device will save my veins from collapsing under stress from intravenous therapies. I’m sure one day I will be grateful for this little lump above my (somewhat saggy) bosom, but right now I can not move my neck and the strain from getting up and down from laying makes me feel like my neck is going to burst open. In the scheme of things it should be the least of my worries. My lovely doctor chatted about music festivals and played Jamiroquai while he performed the surgery (yeah by the way, I had to stay awake for this one 😵). He noticed I was anxious and that I had tears. He told me that his mama was diagnosed with cancer when he was 5, and that she is still alive bossing him around today - 31years later!!! He told me to stay brave and strong and positive. I wanted to hug him but I couldn’t get up. Once again all the AMAZING nurses and doctors at Sir Charles Gairdner hospital left us feeling so well looked after. It’s starting to feel a bit like a home away from home. Now I have eaten a HUGE organic salad and taken some supplements and I’m tucked up in bed. Not this beautiful bed full of pretty linen from @ilovelinen - but this one matches my aesthetic more than the bed in the spare room at my beautiful dads house so I’m just daydreaming over here... #infusaport#bowelcancer#sircharlesgairdnerhospital#wegotthis#loveandlight
I don’t want this space of mine to become ALL about the cancer that is temporarily residing in my body, although it might be hard to avoid seeing as I am living and breathing wellness and healing. But I have come to realise that gratitude and being in the moment are going to be paramount to my healing process. So I want to regularly share my reasons for gratitude, big and small. 1. This morning my ph test showed up that I am well and truly alkaline so I am on the right path for healing and I can introduce some new food to my diet. 2. I am SO grateful for the nourishing organic veggies that have been delivered by angel @hayleygemma 🙏🌿 from her magical garden 3. Foot rubs and daily hangs with my darling dad. 4. My whole crazy family for having 110% faith in my intuition regarding my path. 5. My manly man who fills everyone up with goodness and who knows how to truly laugh everyday. 6. My darling girl who has been on best behaviour while our lives have turned upside down. 7. Days of sunshine in the middle of winter. Aaaaand some things that are a bit sucky 1. daily enemas that have left my little bum sore (I might tell you more about that later...) 2. Bruised arms from IV treatment (but at least i can afford this treatment thanks to all of the amazing donations from you guys 🙏) and that’s it right now so how good is that! Don’t forget to look for your silver linings 🌞 (also I’m sooooo grateful for all the beautiful artwork over on @realfunwow so many inspiring beautiful images 👌🏻)
Im still digesting the UTTERLY OVERWHELMING outpouring of support that I have been shown since the post about my diagnosis last week. There have been so many tears over the last few weeks. Tears of relief, pain, joy and heartache. My tears. My families. My friends and even perfect strangers. While I would never wish what I am going through on anyone, It’s the goodness that sparks when times are tough that remind us how beautiful life is and what really matters. And that, in itself is a gift. Humanity is amazing. My latest update from the oncologist this week is that this particular cancer is incurable. When your doctor tells you to have a think about your bucket list... wow. That really knocks the wind out of you. But I refuse to believe that. I have deleted the word “incurable” out of my head. I have embarked on a path of wellness that I could not have afforded without the generosity of everyone who has donated to my go-fund-me page and I believe with every cell of my body that I am going to triumph over this disease and live to watch over my baby girl as she grows up to be an amazing young woman. I can’t thank you all enough. Please don’t send your condolences or sadness, I am not condemned, I am going to fight this everyday and till the end and I am going to need positive energy, strength, love, laughter... send me your smiles and sunshine 🌞 and if anyone has the means to help financially my amazing team have set up the go-fund-me page to ease the financial burden along the way. I’ll put the link in my profile until it gets removed by Instagram again ♥️🙏🌞
This isn’t easy to write and I don’t really know how to start. This last week has been the longest week of my life. Time has lost all meaning. I have been diagnosed with cancer. Even writing it here, it doesn’t feel like it could be remotely true. On the last two days of our trip up in Exmouth I experienced an unusual pain in my tummy. I went to the doctors and she ordered an ultrasound. The ultrasound was followed immediately by a CT scan. Within 24 hours I was admitted into hospital via the emergency room for a biopsy. The results indicate a primary bowel cancer, that has spread to my liver, lung and lymph. As a 33year old mumma, this is quite literally my worst nightmare. From the moment my baby girl was born my life had new meaning and the strongest sense of purpose - I have been SO scared of death, however it came. Fear of getting sick, fear of flying, fear of the world in general, anything that might separate me from my darling girl. But the funny thing is that even though I have been SO scared in the past, the second that diagnosis was handed to me I realised that there was no room for fear in my body any more. I felt my strength and determination swelling up inside of me. I feel stronger than I have ever felt in my entire life. Watching my family and friends come together around me. I am filled with gratitude for the love I have. The man that I share my life with, Clay Foster, he is literally my hero. Having him as my fella, and that my baby girl chose me to be her mama. And my amazing Mum and Dad and their partners and my sisters and my cousins and my aunty and my friends…. I am the luckiest girl in the world. Right now I am living and breathing love, gratitude and positivity. My heart could literally explode. I know that there will be lots of messages of support and suggestions and I am so grateful. Please understand that I will not be able to respond to everyone. This is my journey and any negative or upsetting comments will be deleted. My heart is open and ready to accept all love and prayers and healing sent my way. (Thank you so much @trinacaryphotography for these pictures, they will truly be treasured forever x)
Polished by the salty tide and bleached in the sun... precious gifts from the ocean, forever reminding me of warmer days and far away places... PS I woke up with some sore gums and a big metal set of BRACES on my grill this morning, so begins my journey to straight teeth. Pretty excited! Xx