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but drinking cough syrup when you don't have a cough is ironic because in reality you're sicker than you thought.

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aries: complex. sneaks up on you. doesn’t affect you much at first, but over time can consume you and become all you can think about.
taurus: warm. a reliable kind of beauty almost, in the sense that it will shine through the darkest of times.
gemini: unconventional. catches you by surprise. almost always leaves a lasting impression.
cancer: dreamy. all hazy eyes and messy hair. beauty that inspires soft, slow songs.
leo: dark. intimidating, dangerous, and slight scary but still lovely, leaves you wondering, “beauty or beast?”
virgo: quiet. dainty in the way of porcelain teacups and feathery eyelashes. can make your heart ache.
libra: lively. wild eyes and feet on the dashboard. the kind of beauty that evokes adventure and giggling like a child.
scorpio: tantalizing. always seems to leave you wanting more, but that something is usually unobtainable.
sagittarius: melancholic. something to write poetry about, beauty you can stare at for days and never grow tired of.
capricorn: bold. hits you straight on, makes you mess up your words. free in the way that leaves you breathless.
aquarius: mischievous. knows how to reel you in and keep you entranced. wild, and very hard to ignore.
pisces: daring. raised eyebrows and smirks. beauty that seems to blur everything around it."


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"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It’s easy.
But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable.
You will remember having conversations with this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual trysts with this person that never technically occurred. This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not really exist. The person is real, and the feelings are real–but you create the context. And the context is everything.
The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.
”
Chuck Klosterman, Killing Yourself to Live: 85% of a True Story on tumblr


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“I found it funny and terrible. And yeah, heartbreaking.” she laughed bitterly. “How can I keep on saying yes, even if I wanted to say no. How I keep on believing in so many lies even if all I wanted was to know every little bit of the truth. Maybe because I know it would hurt me so bad. To see things far from what I wanted them to be. To hear the words that would bring me back to every pain I’m always avoiding—to feel. It hurts like hell. And I am so tired of pretending that it was okay.” she looked down and finally said, “And if I continue this, it would just tear me in the end. I just realized that I deserve to say no.” she sighed showing that she’s exhausted, then she softly said, “And this time, I’ll choose to say no.”
ma.c.a // Silently Breaking (via vomitingwords)


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“1. Don’t rush. If there’s something you’ll miss, it will be the time you have now. 
2. Stop wasting time blaming yourself and blaming others–things happen for a reason, even if the reason will make sense ten years down the road.
3. Don’t stay around toxic people just because you’re afraid of being alone. Being your own best friend has its perks, and there’s no one else you’ll spend more time with than yourself.
4. Be yourself, unapologetically. It may be embarrassing now, but you will learn that there’s nothing more interesting than someone true to themselves.
5. Don’t be afraid of voicing your thoughts, don’t be afraid of calling out people that hurt you. 
6. Write. Write. Write. It will help you clear your mind and also distract yourself when you’re anxious. Writing will be your best friend.
7. Learn all you can, and enjoy it all you want. Knowledge is the only thing truly yours.
8. Be the friend you need, the friend you want. 
9. Read all you can. You’ll find the words you can’t say in the lips of others, you’ll find shelter.
10. Love yourself. That’s the only love you will have, constantly, and the only one that will stick with you even if you fail.”
Ten things I wish I could say my younger self // Flowerybooks.


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""Are you a Thinker or Feeler?"
-Thinkers 
1. When faced with a decision or choice, the thinker automatically focuses on facts, and applies logic to the situation. 
2. He or she subconsciously notices tasks and work that needs to be done. 
3. Thinkers find it easy to provide an objective analysis of any situation. They’re guided by rational reasoning. 
4. They view conflict as a natural and normal part of relationships. It doesn’t always mean that something is wrong, or relationships are going to fall apart. -Feelers 
1. When faced with a decision or choice, feelers are guided by their gut reactions, and listen to their feelings and immediate response. They’re especially concerned about hurting other people, or making life more difficult or painful for them. 
2. They intuitively pick up on people’s feelings and reactions – and they notice body language and non-verbal cues. 
3. In reaching decisions, they want to hear others’ opinions, and they seek a consensus, or a fair compromise. 
4. They are distressed by conflict, and dislike when people argue. Their ultimate goal is peace and harmony."
(onlinecounsellingcollege)


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"What the signs fall in love with
Aries: passion, caring, sharing things, darkness, stability, mutual feelings
Taurus: honesty, common interests, passionate and meaningful conversations
Gemini: deep talks, stargazing, feeling special, make out sessions
Cancer: honesty, emotional trust, pretty eyes, loyalty, sweetness
Leo: confidence, uniqueness, cute laughs, night drives,
Virgo: communication, intellect, sensitivity, quality time, aesthetical prettiness
Libra: playfulness, closeness, caring words, keeping promises, adoration
Scorpio: mysteries, passionate kisses, inside jokes, intense staring, good humor
Sagittarius: freedom, late nights, good smells, cute smiles, small talk
Capricorn: faithfulness, happiness, dancing, passion, hard working people
Aquarius: breaking rules, laughs, mind connections, softness
Pisces: affection, coziness, observant minds, inside jokes, organization."


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"Every single relationship will get “boring” after you’ve been together for ages. Love isn’t a feeling, it’s a commitment; to love every day, physically and emotionally. It’s hard afff, it’s not always laughs and smiles and fun. People tend to quit when it stops being cute. “Oh the spark is gone.” No, that’s not how it works. You want somebody to never give up on you and love you unconditionally? Do the same. This isn’t Hollywood, this isn’t romantic happy ever after bs. Love someone when you don’t want to, when they are being a fricken asshole. When they’re being hard to love. That’s the realist shit there is."


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ily guys and i hope it makes some of you smile 💓


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"Read This If You Don’t Think You Can Move On:
I know things don’t make sense to you right now. I know you’re asking yourself all the ‘whys’ and ‘hows’ you can think of. I know you’re terrified of moving on because what if it’s too soon? What if it’s a mistake? What if it’s just a bump in the road, not a dead-end? And what if you never feel this way again, what if nothing as incredible as this knocks on your door again?
But as long as your door is always open, better things will knock on it and as long as your heart is still beating, it will always find ways to fall in love again.
Because what is stopping us from moving on is the same thing that will set us free. Those who hurt us are those who can heal us once we decide to let them go.
Because even though you don’t want to move on, you also don’t want to be just another memory, just another experience or just another person someone else decided not to love.
You want to be the one who dealt with it with your head up high, you want to be the one who loved herself enough to know that something better is awaiting her, you want to be the one who decided not to be defined by someone who didn’t couldn’t love her and you want to be the one who moved on, the one who didn’t stay waiting, the one who didn’t settle and the one who cried for one night and woke up the next day smiling.
Because the truth about moving on is that it hurts too, it hurts to look back, it hurts to throw away the memories and it hurts to end something you were not ready to finish, but in life, the things that are hardest to do are the things we must do to live, to survive and to thrive."
(continued in comments below)


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“When you love someone, everything about them starts to become infinitely better. You look at them like it’s the first time all the time, and I know they say that butterflies stand for nervousness but it’s not the anxiousness in your stomach but more of a warmth in your soul whenever they are on your mind or in front of you. Even if you hated music, you’d still love the melody in their laugh and the song in their voice. You can walk downstairs to buy a gallon of milk and within the twenty feet you will find something that’ll remind you of them. It’s as easy as seeing their favourite color or a stranger order coffee the same way they will. And as you start every day, you wish the sun would never set so you’d never have to miss a conversation you could have if sleep wasn’t necessary.
When someone loves you, they will find their way to you and you won’t have to ask them to come meet you in the middle of the city just for five minutes. They will want to. They will want to listen to you rant about your current mood and listen to you when you are stressed about everything, even when it is absolutely nothing. They will touch you with tenderness, kiss you with the softness they inhabit, and when you are close enough to feel their heartbeat, you know it’s for you. You’ll be able to see the electricity in their eyes and the fire in their soul whenever you are together, enough to light up the world and even the sea can’t burn you out. It’s always a special moment with them, even if it’s the simplest things such as taking a walk or drinking tea on a chilly day, and even that’ll be more than ordinary. And as this person continues to stay in your life, you will realize how deserving people are of love, especially yourself.”


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"If I ever decide to give up on you, just understand how much that took out of me. I’m the type to give endless chances, always have your back when you’re wrong and truly accept you for who you are…when the rest of the world doesn’t want you, I will. So if I ever give up on you? understand it took everything I had left inside of me to leave you alone. Because if I love you and care for you, there isn’t anything on this planet I wouldn’t do for you" (via starry-eyed-93)


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“I’m not completely sure I love you. I’m just a teenage girl who’s bad at all things concerning the art of romance. Even if I don’t love you, I feel pretty damn close. I am absolutely obsessed with you, you occupy my every thought. My heart beats so fast when I think of seeing you again, and I could live in the joy I feel when you’re around. You’re the first person I loved after having my heart absolutely shattered for the first time ever. You taught me that love doesn’t equal pain. Your eyes are so warm, so beautiful, so right. I never knew brown eyes were my favorite until I looked into your’s. I love everything about you, all your insecurities because without them, you wouldn’t be you. You’re far from perfect, but we all are, and that’s okay. There’s nothing I wouldn’t give to be with you right now. I would give up my entire universe if it meant that you were happy. There are so many things I want to say to you, but I have no idea how to string together the words to express them. So, instead, I’ll say this. I think, maybe, after all, I do love you.”
Excerpt from a book I will never write #1066 (via excerptsofstories)


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"I wonder how many people would have fallen in love if they had only spoken to each other. Strangers sitting next to each other on an airplane at night, watching the world grow smaller beneath them. Or in a tiny bookstore filled with old stories, their pages yellowed and dusty with age. Or sitting next to each other at a concert, both wanting to linger in the same note of a song that they think contains a universe. How many strangers have shared lovely, beautiful moments together? How many people would have found the love of their life if they had decided to say something?"


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Advice for people who aren't having a good day: (by kittykatears on tumblr) - Wait until it gets dark and make tea or coffee or hot chocolate, or if it’s too hot outside
- Make yourself a healthy smoothie with your favorite things in it at any point during the day
- Put on your favorite underwear, it helps, trust me, it’s an old family secret (i’m not kidding)
- If you have a pet, play the “how many things can i stick on you until you move or get mad” game (bonus points if they fall asleep, extra bonus points if a family member sees you and tells you to quit it, extra double ultra points if they join in)
- Rip a peice of paper into as many little pieces as you can
- Go to animeseason.com and click “random anime” until you see one that looks completely ridiculous (or actually good) and watch the first episode. Repeat if it sucked or if you get bored halfway through
- Spend at least an hour making a music playlist for how you feel right now and save it for now or when you feel a bad mood rise again
- Curl up in bed and cover yourself with blankets and pillows and put in music and just lay there for a while (sleeping is also good)
- Eat everything
- Drink lots of water
- It’s okay bad moods don’t last forever!!!!!! I promise!!! You will be yourself soon and there are people who love you very much, don’t be afraid to reach out to them
- You are lovely
- Eat lots of bananas


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"Do you ever feel like you’re missing out on so much just because of being who you are and not someone else? Whenever I see a beautiful girl I wonder how it must feel to be that beautiful and if I’ll ever feel like that. Or when I see someone who’s confident and extroverted and I imagine how nice and easy it must be to be that way. Or when I see someone that’s my age who has already accomplished so much or been in so many places and experienced so many things, I can’t help but feel like time is falling from my hands like sand and I’m not getting better or going anywhere. I grew up watching movies and reading stories that made me believe that life was supposed to be constantly exciting and I haven’t felt that way many times and I just feel so stuck being myself. I wish I could be someone else for a while."
(hoeonfilm)


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“10 pieces of advice to give yourself at the age of 20”
At the age of 11, you learned that perfection does not always mean a flat tummy and a thigh gap. Go on and eat that second piece of cookie that you crave so much.
At the age of 12, you learned that just because you call her “mom” and him as “dad,” it doesn’t mean they inherently know how to be that. Also, suicide poison is not the cure for everything, it’s not a cure at all.
At the age of 13, you learned the difference between giving up and taking a rest. You might have given it your all but not make it. Remember to disregard everything that comes after but.
At the age of 14, you learned that standing up for everyone else does not mean that all of them will stand up for you when you need someone. Not one of them would be the first one to defend you, that spot is reserved for your name.
At the age of 15, you learned that people rarely mean what they say even if as a writer, you deem each and every word important. Learn to know the voices that speak sincerity and the voices that are just trying to get into your pants.
At the age of 16, you learned that letting go of people that only brings toxicity in your life is never a crime. Thinking about your own peace of mind does not make you selfish. Neither does placing yourself above that last number on your priority list.
At the age of 17, you learned that giving yourself to everyone willing could only lead to one thing: your own’s deterioration. Dear, you are more precious than someone who can’t even look into your eyes in the morning.
At the age of 18, you learned that loving and accepting yourself are two different things. Placing yourself in situations you are well aware of your self distraction is never loving yourself.
(continued in comments below)


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“I loved her,” he said,
“I think a part of me always will love her. She made me feel alive and after 19 years on this planet I finally felt like someone understood me, I don’t believe in soul mates much but I do believe that I was meant to meet her. But months passed and she tried so hard to make me a better person because lord knows I didn’t treat her half as good as I should’ve. I loved her but I struggled to show it, I struggled to let anyone in enough for them to know me because I was too damn afraid of letting someone fuck me up even more than I already am. So instead I had to let her go and my god I won’t ever forget the look on her face or how much her eyes glistened from the tears she was trying to hold back when I told her I was leaving. 
But I had to let her go because I knew what was best for her, and it wasn’t me.”
Excerpt of a book I’ll never write (via 500lettersforyou)


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"It’s funny how even friendships you thought were for life, change in unexpected ways. We were best friends and then we grew up and grew apart. I miss you though. I miss being able to fight with you and sort out “issues” then and there. I miss the time when we didn’t really have to worry about boundaries and offending each other. Now we are too grown up for those things, right? Now we are supposed to give each other space, we walk on egg shells around each other. You don’t ask me anything any more for fear of upsetting me. You don’t understand me and now you don’t even want to, you don’t even try. I’m too much for you to handle now. We were best friends and then we grew up; I got lost in depression and you made your world in which I dont fit any longer. And to say all this aloud, makes me sound like a loser, like I’m jealous of you. Because you seem to have everything I don’t. But I’m not jealous. I just miss you, the old you. I miss us. And I’m mad about the fact that we can no longer talk about it, because you won’t ever understand what I want to say now. I miss you.
Your secrets are safe here."
(via thesecretletter)


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"
You Are Worth More Than Your Toxic Relationship:
It’s hard to see it right now but you’re worth more than what you’re going through. You’re better than your toxic relationship, you’re enough the way you are and you deserve better than you’re allowing yourself to be treated. It’s hard to be in that position because you don’t notice it happening, you can’t see what everyone else around you is seeing.
When I was in a toxic relationship I wanted nothing more than to believe what I had was love, that it was normal, that I was being treated great, that he was just protective because he loved me. I made excuse after excuse for what I was feeling because I believed it was love. I made myself believe it was healthy because I couldn’t see what everyone else was seeing.
My mom and I would get in fights all the time because she told me we’d break up, she told me that we wouldn’t make it and I’d hate her for saying those words because I didn’t want to believe her, but she was right.
I was brainwashed and I was blind to the way things were because I couldn’t see it and I couldn’t see it until months, even years later. I was too heartbroken to accept it and the worse part was I broke my own heart when I left and he moved on to someone new days later. I finally realized that relationship wasn’t worth it, it wasn’t love, I wasn’t happy. I knew I needed to walk away and I was the one with a giant hole in my heart and he was on to the next person.
It was toxic but that doesn’t mean the ending didn’t hurt because it did. It was painful and heartbreaking and I didn’t know if I’d find the strength to get back up.
But I did.
I moved on, I found the strength within myself to realize that I’m better off without him. I realized that toxic love isn’t love, that he needed control in order to be secure, that he needed someone to complete him because he isn’t complete on his own and I learned how to be complete by myself. I learned how to heal alone, I learned what I’m capable of, I learned how strong I am.
(continued in the comments)


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“1. Don’t rush. If there’s something you’ll miss, it will be the time you have now. 
2. Stop wasting time blaming yourself and blaming others–things happen for a reason, even if the reason will make sense ten years down the road.
3. Don’t stay around toxic people just because you’re afraid of being alone. Being your own best friend has its perks, and there’s no one else you’ll spend more time with than yourself.
4. Be yourself, unapologetically. It may be embarrassing now, but you will learn that there’s nothing more interesting than someone true to themselves.
5. Don’t be afraid of voicing your thoughts, don’t be afraid of calling out people that hurt you. 
6. Write. Write. Write. It will help you clear your mind and also distract yourself when you’re anxious. Writing will be your best friend.
7. Learn all you can, and enjoy it all you want. Knowledge is the only thing truly yours.
8. Be the friend you need, the friend you want. 
9. Read all you can. You’ll find the words you can’t say in the lips of others, you’ll find shelter.
10. Love yourself. That’s the only love you will have, constantly, and the only one that will stick with you even if you fail.”
Ten things I wish I could say my younger self // Flowerybooks.


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“I knew what true love would feel like. Or maybe sound like and look like. I’ve read about it in books all my life, I’ve watched it in movies. And I was expecting something just like what I read. And then last night you said something. It wasn’t anything like those books. It wasn’t romantic or poetic or anything. But those words were dripping with love, and those words were full of feelings, real, true, heartfelt feelings. And I fell for you all over again. I thought I know how to love, but you inspire me still. I can’t say I’ve fallen in love, but one thing is sure, I’ve found love in you. I’d read about men like you, and love like ours, but that was fiction. I didn’t know it can exist, or yes maybe I hoped it can, but I didn’t entirely believe in it. But yes it does. And all I can be is thankful to have no one, but you in my life. But it breaks my heart to know I am not yours to keep, neither are you mine to be. And all I wish is that you find someone you truly deserve and someone who’s worth you. Because you are the kind of person who’d love the f*ck outta her, and that is also what you deserve in return. I am grateful, that the universe let your soul stop by, even if it was just for a short while.”
nidhibhasin.tumblr.com


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“When you love someone, everything about them starts to become infinitely better. You look at them like it’s the first time all the time, and I know they say that butterflies stand for nervousness but it’s not the anxiousness in your stomach but more of a warmth in your soul whenever they are on your mind or in front of you. Even if you hated music, you’d still love the melody in their laugh and the song in their voice. You can walk downstairs to buy a gallon of milk and within the twenty feet you will find something that’ll remind you of them. It’s as easy as seeing their favourite color or a stranger order coffee the same way they will. And as you start every day, you wish the sun would never set so you’d never have to miss a conversation you could have if sleep wasn’t necessary.
When someone loves you, they will find their way to you and you won’t have to ask them to come meet you in the middle of the city just for five minutes. They will want to. They will want to listen to you rant about your current mood and listen to you when you are stressed about everything, even when it is absolutely nothing. They will touch you with tenderness, kiss you with the softness they inhabit, and when you are close enough to feel their heartbeat, you know it’s for you. You’ll be able to see the electricity in their eyes and the fire in their soul whenever you are together, enough to light up the world and even the sea can’t burn you out. It’s always a special moment with them, even if it’s the simplest things such as taking a walk or drinking tea on a chilly day, and even that’ll be more than ordinary. And as this person continues to stay in your life, you will realize how deserving people are of love, especially yourself.”


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"I remember the feeling I had towards you when we first started talking. I thought you were amazing. I remember talking on the phone with you and telling stories, I remember you telling me that you loved Cheerios and I disagreed with you but I knew I really liked you, and I never wanted to mess anything up because I didn’t want to lose someone like you. you made my heart flutter and I’d always get butterflies when I’d see your name pop up on my screen, there was no better feeling. I miss that.”


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“It was toxic. Our relationship was toxic. We loved each other but it was a constant back and forth from bliss to pain and pain to bliss. We couldn’t be the people who we wanted to be. We were too tied up to each other. It didn’t help that we also had to hide from everyone. It was getting harder and harder to breathe. It was suffocating. Our love was real but maybe, it was just not the right time. We needed to love ourselves first. Maybe, one day, we will meet again and never let each other go.”


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“1. It will get better. I promise all these problems will be stories one day and you’ll laugh at them thinking how silly you were. 
2. Don’t make promises you can’t keep. If their laugh isn’t music to your ears or you don’t see the whole world in their eyes, don’t promise to love them forever. 
3. Your grades don’t define you. The test you almost failed won’t matter in 10 years, what will matter is how good of a person you are. 
4. However, don’t ignore your education. Education is one of the most powerful weapons you can ever have. Read as many books as you can and never ever stop learning. 
5. Listen to your mother, I promise whatever she advises you is probably the best for you. No one truly wants the absolute best for you as much as your mother. 
6. Never ever comment on anyone’s appearance, if they can’t fix it in 5 minutes. Criticisms stick and they will see that there’s something wrong with them everytime they look in the mirror, even if it for a split second. 
7. Compliment people as much as you can, kindness goes a long way in such a cruel world. 
8. Never ever forget where you came from no matter how high you reach, be as humble as you can, because you can lose everything in a second and you won’t have anywhere to go except back home. 
9. If they want to leave for no reason, hold the door open for them. If they think you don’t deserve an explanation for why they’re leaving, then they don’t deserve a second of your time. 
10. Love yourself, love yourself, love yourself. I can’t stress this enough, it is a long process, but every time you see a flaw in yourself, learn to love it, then watch yourself slowly change it.”
Reem, writing prompt #62: list 10 pieces of advice you’d give yourself
(via wnq-writers on tumblr)


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"You waste the best years of your life
Loving someone that doesn’t appreciate the feelings you offer him
Someone that doesn’t get butterflies
When he looks at you
Like you do when you see him walking by
You look at him like he’s your world
Like he could end wars with his smile
And heal you with his fingertips softly touching your skin
But the only thing he does is breaking you, destoying you and making you feel like you’re hard to love
And while you waste years of years waiting for him to love you back, you’re blind
Blind for all the boys that could turn your winter into spring
And years later you will realize you’ve waited for a single star while the whole universe was at your feet.“
- c.n (via poemsivewrote on tumblr)


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1. You’re going to kiss her and I am going to pretend that it won’t hurt.
2. It hurts.
3. Don’t come back. I don’t want you here anymore. Take your things and go. I don’t want to hear your name ever again.
4. I miss you.
5. Things ended badly between us. But that doesn’t mean I stopped caring. I still do. I still care.
6. My hands never did stop shaking after you left. I think there’s something wrong with me. I can’t think straight.
7. You changed your number. Or you blocked me, but the first one hurts less than the second so I’m sticking with the first. I guess you got tired of my voicemails begging you to come home.
8. I’m sorry.
9. I’ll stop calling.
10. I’m not the same person anymore. I changed. I changed and you weren’t here to see it.
11. I hope you still think about me. I hope you’re okay.
12. One day, you’re going to knock on my door and it won’t hurt and I won’t answer.
13. I’m scared that I will.

A.M// 13 things I wanted to Say After Things Went Wrong


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“I saw a life with him.
I saw coffee dates and camping trips.
I saw us holding hands on winter mornings.
I saw goodbye hugs and welcome back kisses.
I saw him meeting my parents, meeting my friends, seeing where I grew up and who I grew up with.
I saw friday night movie marathons and sunday morning cookie baking.
I saw a house with a backyard and puppies, all with him.
I saw every sappy thing with him that I always tried convincing everyone I didn’t care for.
I saw a future in him.
And it isn’t just the death of a relationship that I have to mourn,
its the future I saw with him. 
I’m mourning the death of a love I thought would last a lifetime, but I am mourning the memories we never got to build on too.”
mourning him // a.b
(via letters-anonymous)


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“Aries: The nights are getting longer and your voice isn’t enough to cover this skin; but I’m happier now even though there is less of my heart left.
Taurus: If a broken piece of light is called a rainbow, maybe your broken heart is the thorn that has been kissing these forests back to life.
Gemini: She doesn’t want you to fix it, she just wants to talk about all the reasons why it hurts.
Cancer: We could be the best thing that never happened to each other.
Leo: The problem is you go to bed lonely for so long you forget what it’s like to reach out and feel a dream instead of a blanket playing every definitive shadow onto blushed cheeks.
Virgo: I know I’m loved, but it isn’t by you, and maybe that’s why my throat always closes every time I try to talk about happiness.
Libra: I once saw the sun in your eyes and though I can’t taste spring when your lips are signing my hands, I know I’m made of more you than me.
Scorpio: The problem is, I don’t know which beat followed you too close to the shore, but you’re still on my mind even though you’re not in my heart.
Sagittarius: I could be surrounded by a hundred thoughts, yet all I can still feel is you.
Capricorn: Who am I when you’re not thinking of me? These thoughts are empty pews of memories waiting for a prayer soft enough to fill the floor with a color that doesn’t reflect a threaded collar.
Aquarius: Sometimes I close my eyes just to see if you’re still there.
Pisces: How long have you been looking at your hands, trying to remember what it feels like to hold something beautiful?"
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“I want you to tell me about every person you’ve ever been in love with. Tell me why you loved them, then tell me why they loved you. Tell me about a day in your life you didn’t think you’d live through. Tell me what the word “home” means to you and tell me in a way that I’ll know your mother’s name just by the way you describe your bed room when you were 8. See, I wanna know the first time you felt the weight of hate and if that day still trembles beneath your bones. Do you prefer to play in puddles of rain or bounce in the bellies of snow? And if you were to build a snowman, would you rip two branches from a tree to build your snowman arms? Or would you leave the snowman armless for the sake of being harmless to the tree? And if you would, would you notice how that tree weeps for you because your snowman has no arms to hug you every time you kiss him on the cheek? Do you kiss your friends on the cheek? Do you sleep beside them when they’re sad, even if it makes your lover mad? Do you think that anger is a sincere emotion or just the timid motion of a fragile heart trying to beat away its pain? See, I wanna know what you think of your first name. And if you often lie awake at night and imagine your mother’s joy when she spoke it for the very first time. I want you tell me all the ways you’ve been unkind. Tell me all the ways you’ve been cruel. See, I wanna know more than what you do for a living. I wanna know how much of your life you spend just giving. And if you love yourself enough to also receive sometimes. I wanna know if you bleed sometimes through other people’s wounds.”
— Andrea Gibson


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