The first memories always feel illusory. Did I make that up or is it a projection from many family stories? Existence can be chimerical even when it’s the foundation. Oftentimes when folx would project on to me I would internalize it. When they’d say I didn’t have a childhood, that my Dad may be there for me but he can’t be a good dad if he’s a drunk, that I’m unbelonging to any race, ect. Honestly I feel in my heart that I had an amazing childhood. Most of it was spent guiding children younger than I. There’s not an age before thirteen where I didn’t have my twin best friends, younger sis, or some neighborhood kids tagging along beside me. Maybe it’s because of those projections that I felt those kids deserved to feel free. As free as I wanted to feel. Now, people still project their insecurities, beliefs, faults, ect. to me but I know people can have addictions and that doesn’t have much to do with me. That race is a construct. That calling a child brilliant does more than calling them beautiful. This photo is my Aunty and I playing a game of memory during a turbulent time in my life. Memory can be selective but it’s helped me understand that we need each other. When I’m with cousins the stories that are told come with different perspectives and it’s incredible to see how differently we are all taking the same scene in. Lots of, “no way, I didn’t do that”, “let me tell the story”, and lots of laughs. Memory was my favorite game and it still is.💜
Brandon Caliendo, from what I hear you were one healthy baby! Blessed to be related to such a brilliant spirit. You are so very strong in mind, body, and soul. This year is made sweeter by all the memories with you. From the most silent place to the loudest place we thrive. You make this life look beautifully and I know you’ll continue to shine. Love you couz @rugbylife86 🎂
Alban Elued is almost upon us as the autumn (our tomb) equinox turns solar energy into an earthy womb in which to manifest. The green realms ask us to sit with tree-spirits as we go from gold to green then green to gold. When day and night are close to equal and the transformation of yang energy into yin energy arrives. Regain and maintain your balance as we continue to seek harmonies.